I've started dealing with things that haven't been an issue before.
I'm seeing things that aren't there, watching movements that don't exist, my joints suddenly weight hundreds of pounds, my muscles twitch relentlessly, I have trouble sleeping or I sleep so hard that the days seem unreal. These sensations, on top of the pain, and the strange sleep schedule are so exhausting. Between this whole ordeal and the mood swings from hell I feel like I'm going crazy in a sane world. I don't know what to do. I'm trying to be normal and sane, I'm trying to keep going like a human being, but I just can't. I feel guilty. I feel wrong. I feel like a painting that's been all mushed up. I feel like so many things that I can't pinpoint a feeling. I feel too much, I want to do too much, everything feels to bright, too quiet, too confusing, too abrasive... Sensations, feelings, and pain are too much. I'm on sensory overload and it's making me crazy and irritable. How do I cope with this? Anyone?
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